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Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
I have been an aspiring artist for some years now but have found I never took myself serious enough. I now see as an artist we all have so many potentials. Well now I am ready to try.

I have always been more of a traditional person but find the convenience and challenge of digital art to be so much more fun so please stick with me as I develop.

Thank you and please leave a comment I would love to explore all you other artists as well :)
I am shy and withdrawn, I've always kept to myself way too scared to let anyone criticize me, I've given up far too many times because my self confidence was so low, I knew I'd never make it anywhere.
A few years have passed now, graduated High School, forced into work, realized people aren't as scary as they seem (most the time) I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and I can see the effect it had on my life and who I was. I am ready to become who I want.

Bipolar disorder controlled every part of my life, mentally I hated myself, I knew  something was wrong with me but this was normal, hurting myself was normal, hurting the people I loved was normal. Waking up in the morning and telling my mom I was sick because I had no motivation to get out of bed was normal, 45% absences was normal. Some days I'd draw, other days I'd rip out every page of my journal because I was useless and bad at everything and I'd never amount to anything.

I spent my whole life looking for ways to avoid triggering it, I shut everyone out, I refused to do anything, a routine day of sleep, wake up, eat and school. It didn't help, I remember looking over and seeing that cute boy in my class looking at me, the one I wish I had the confidence to go up to him and say something, but all I saw was judgment and hatred and I knew deep in the back of my head he was disgusted by me. Some days I wish I had the strength to end my life, Some days I wished I had that strength I have now, the strength I convinced myself I had because it's what I needed to survive, part of me thinks it's all because of the loving boyfriend I have, living every day just to make sure I live another day with him, I wish he knew what a difference he made in my life.

Now I can not say I am perfect and it's not being "treated" I refused to live on pills but from where I was before I am the happiest I have ever been.

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wishmak3r Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Professional Artist
Add me please^^
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3wyl Featured By Owner May 9, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello! :wave:

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Loki-Dalton Featured By Owner May 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Danke for the favourite, really appreciate it
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Elza82270 Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2017  Student General Artist
Thank you very much for the fav:happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce: La la la la La la la la La la la la La la la la La la la la La la la la La la la la :D (Big Grin) 
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CrimsonsCreations Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave! ^-^
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